I died this morning.

last night i was sad.
this morning i was sad.
so i went to bed-
and i died in my sleep
while the sun was out.

when the workers told me i was dead i did not believe them.
why? how?
i told them i loved someone
they told me i could contact him
but i wasn't ready.

how do you tell someone you're dead?
actually, i was to call him on his cell phone
the workers said myspace might be easier.

I put it off.

I went through afterlife orientation- still in shock over my own death.
at the end i said- i need to call him.
so they handed me a phone and his number
and it was difficult to dial.
i put the phone to my ear-
and i woke up in my bed.
i was flat on my back with tears in my eyes.
the sun was still shining on me.

i am happy. if he does not love me, i am still happy. at least i am still allowed to love.